“As long as you are proud you cannot know God. A proud man is always looking down on thing and people: and, of course, as long as you are looking down you cannot see something that is above you.”
― C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity
An obvious consideration I have encountered during my self reclamation project.
Prideful and ego driven. No need for God in those circumstances. Why? I knew it all, knew what was best, had all of the answers and expected all just to accept it as fact. Not really from a pulpit, but a bully in certain regards just the same.
The level of static this generated between my ears prevented me from hearing Him. My chest hollowed out and empty. But most damagingly, the ruin it laid to my soul, blocking Him from me.
I was certainly looking down. Gathering in the landscape of my self destruction.
Then, one day, I chose to raise my gaze. To finally see what things really were. Removing the spectacle of ego brought me to embrace a new day and encounter another horizon.
Both born of Him.
...my temporary assignment. 