Gifted.

“The wise men came to Bethlehem and gave the child their precious gifts. When you come to Christ, break open the very best of yourself and make it a gift for him.

Finally, they returned to their home country by another route. As Fulton Sheen commented so magnificently: “Of course they did; for no one comes to Christ and goes back the same way he came!”

Bishop Barron – Daily Gospel Reflections, Sunday, January 7, 2024.

Some time ago, I got lost on my way towards Bethlehem.  Not that I am or ever will be a wiseman.  Just that I too saw the guiding warmth in that star.  I wanted nothing more than to be there for and with Him.  Unfortunately, I got lost.  I chose selfish defiance instead of selfless reliance. Since then, I have been working to find my way back ever since. 

Sad to say, when I can finally return in full, I will not be able to break open the very best of myself as my gift to Him. 

I will only be able to share my utter brokenness.   

He deserves better.  But for now, that is all I have.  

But I know now that He understands the nature of my gift and is ok with that. He simply wishes for a relationship.  Friendship.  A bond. Love.

He knows for a fact that anyone that comes to Him is most likely broken in some fashion.  In need of reassurance. Repair.  Redemption. And resurrection.  He knows that anyone that comes to Him does not go back the same way.  His loving touch changes everything.

His gift to me.

That is exactly what I am counting on. 

That is what I desperately need.

That is what I know for a fact will ultimately come to save me.

My journey may have taken me towards Him from one direction.

But I am counting on not going back the same way.

For He knows which way to send me.

Gifted.