I cannot call it a promise.
More of an intention I would have to say. It can be worded all sorts of ways. But what it comes down to for me is just this; stay here.
In this moment.
Now.
Present.
That is not to say I don’t feel the urge to pull off at the next exit when I am heading south for “The Past”. Or the one that comes right after the rest area labeled “Whathasyettobedetermined”. This is an ongoing battle for me. I have put the blinkers on a few times lately. Tapped the brakes. That being said, my sense is that it always will be that way. I just need to work at taking it down a few notches.
Hoping that effort too will remain ongoing.
Staying here is the best way to stick with the now and allow things to happen. One of the most prescient offerings regarding these moments came from Robert Frost. He said “…the best way out is always through.”
Which makes sense. Reverse then cannot come into play and you cannot see or experience anything beyond what is currently in front of you.
It can feel somewhat sunsettling just staying here. For lack of a better term, transitory. Perhaps that is how it is taken. Sensed. Not controlled. Planned. Just there.
But now does only last twenty-four hours, a third of which may be consumed by sleep. Probably explains that growing lack of attachment or concern I have what came before and a general disinterest in devoting or expending any form of energy towards “next” whatsoever.
If I can remain focused, then through can only be seen from where I am right now.
Not simply the best way.
The only way.
Out.
...my temporary assignment. 