“Gratitude is far more than expressing a ‘thank you’ or being genuinely appreciative for the things you receive and the opportunities that happen to come your way. The word “gratitude” directly reflects its Latin origin, gratus, signifying a state of thankfulness and good will for things we receive, whether those are acts of kindness or general blessings in life. Delving even deeper into state, you come to find its Latin foundation, status meaning condition or position.
Thus gratitude comes to be an actual state of being. A mode of conducting one’s life positioned to embrace an attitude of gratitude. Semper Gratus. To the extent that it may become a sensational status comprising physical, mental, emotional and spiritual elements that evolve to remain within. This level of belief and conviction serves as a constant, loving reminder of the grace you have been given, not once, but many times and more to follow.
As much as we try to isolate, none of us is an island. We are all linked inseparably by our needs to one another. Not one of us is truly self-made. We all owe our aspirations, advances and accomplishments to the presence of others in our lives, whether ongoing, fleeting or a coincidental happenstance. This is true for those we have come to know through our fellowship here as well as the one we ultimately need of divine origins.
In fact, being that His presence is a constant in our lives, His grace acts to connect us with those we need, who somehow grow into and become a part of us. Whether we want to acknowledge that or not, we should never forget that there have been so many who have helped us along each and every step of the way. We can never overlook the fact that more will come to do the same.
“No one after lighting a lamp hides it under a jar, or puts it under a bed, but puts it on a lampstand, so that those who enter may see the light. For nothing is hidden that will not be disclosed, nor is anything secret that will not become known and come to light. Then pay attention to how you listen; for to those who have, more will be given; and from those who do not have, even what they seem to have will be taken away.”
Fitting words for the times we find ourselves in.
Impeccable timing as well.
A faith journey brings with it enhanced and enlightened senses. What might have been simply glossed over before, now seems so obvious, compelling and illuminating. The sentences, the phrasing and the words take on an entirely new meaning.
In the past few days, the lamp has become a beacon. Things hidden away in the dark are becoming known and coming to light.
“Pay attention to how you listen; for to those who have, more will be given;”. When your senses awaken, things sound different. They take on new meaning. Carry a different weight. If you hear it like that once, you will hear it like that again. Again. And again. More of that will be given if only you can hear.
“…and from those who do not have, even what they seem to have will be taken away.” Those who have not listened. What they seem to have, will be lost. Speaking from experience, truer words were never spoken. I for one did not hear. Chose not to listen. And as a result, so much was lost.
So much.
Perhaps your light simply starts as a candle. So be it. May be it is the only such source in your life. Feed it. Share that glow with the world around you. As the ember grows, make it into a lamp and carry it with you wherever you go. Guiding you forward and others towards that loving glow.
Your other senses will become illuminated.
“Pay attention to how you listen; for to those who have, more will be given;”
Begin to hear what is always being said. You will be given far more to hear.
Part of His divine design. As created by our higher power. God is the very source of love and we are called to embrace, reflect and direct that love to others.
Yet during the course of life’s travails, disappointments and distrust, we begin to engage in the process of actively obscuring that attribute. Cordoning off that integral and essential aspect of our being. Seeking ephemeral pursuits. Avoiding our true nature. Evading our responsibility. And in so doing, creating a false sense of security, safety and wellbeing.
Despite the fact that we are hardwired for it, and it is our primary purpose, it can hurt to love.
To give it without condition, guarantee or quid pro quo. To expose oneself to a seemingly fatal level of self-inflicted pain. We convince ourselves to capitulate to that illusion. That we will not survive the giving. That it will never be received as we intend. Or more to the point – how we expect it to be taken. Or that we need to be present to witness the ultimate outcome.
Choosing to succumb to a skinned knee, while another within our immediate universe might be in the throes of a hopeless, lingering, lonely spiral downward. Choosing process, research and expediency over interaction, intuition and patience. Focusing on our flaws rather than the good inherent to the core. Choosing ourselves and our needs first over those of another and making them second.
True, dispensing, gifting and asserting love are all arduous tasks. The heaviest lifting imaginable Missions that can generate more than their fair share of discomfort, disappointment and despair.
Fortunately, there are those within our midst that refuse to be deterred. Fervently remaining on point. Absorbing the pain. Depleting themselves. Giving it up.
These sturdy souls, with an unyielding faith, have leaned into this mission. Recognized that their purpose lay within. The pain is temporary. Reserves can be refilled. And giving it up is who they are.
You see, we are all made to love. It’s just that we need to trust in that level of faith, learn to surrender ourselves to Him, and allow Him to direct our path.
Then we will be fully equipped and supported to do so for others.
As I progress through my self reclamation project, I find that in more ways than one, I am becoming more attuned to God. The readings, gospel, reflections and the homily inspire me to discover, read, reflect and open myself to ever more to centering Him in my life. Revelation upon revelation.
At football today, I had the opportunity to share the lectern with a fellow coach, for “Faith and Football.” Reading Matthew 23, and then some thoughts on our perspective to the team, we hoped to create an awareness of ego and pride within them and how it can work against them, isolating all from each other and obstructing development, growth and the auspices of a true team.
“Incurvatus in se” and “excurvatus ex se”, the definitive approach I came across last week was a central part of our segment today. They offer a compelling avenue towards understanding the ill effects of ego and a pride run rampant, for all involved. And as I went deeper into these aspects of faith, they provided the key towards a better grasp of sin.
Words can become so convoluted and misrepresented. Convoluted not so much in terms of complicated and difficult to understand, but moreso akin to the technical view of the word;”intricatelyfolded, twisted, or coiled.” Misrepresented, to “give a false or misleading account of the nature of.”, so that an audience can be led to or away from some desired end point. By the looks of it, sin falls into that convoluted, misrepresented category.
Now at this point of this collection of words and punctuation, this is just me thinking out loud. Well, typing/blogging out loud. So here goes:
My initial understanding of it – sin – was the acts committed. And that original sin was our affliction at birth. Immoral, wrong, hurtful things we choose to do, perhaps predicated from a mindset possessed the day we were born. Simplistic in my estimation. Generic. Overly. Not to mention that it leaves one kinda hangin’.
Reading more about and peering into the Garden, a deeper sense of awareness and connection is more evident. They two were formed of the earth and breathed into life by Him, granted both freewill and the experience offered by the world about them. Anything the heart could desire could be found in the trees that surrounded and sheltered them. All was theirs to experience, save one. The fruit of the tree of knowledge.
As Bishop Barron explains it; “So how about the prohibition? We hear that they are prohibited from eating from one tree, which is a “tree of knowledge of good and evil.” What does that mean? God is the unconditioned good. Therefore, God is, in his own being, the criterion of good and evil. Therefore, the prerogative belongs to God alone to know good and evil. The original sin is arrogating to ourselves the prerogative of determining good and evil, when our wills become the criterion and the measure rather than God.”
Pretty much depicts the nature of the serpent that has been ever present in my life; ego.
Professing to know it all and be everything to everybody as espoused from the pulpit of my creation – ego and pride. And as Adam and Eve found shelter from themselves and protection from the truth by donning clothes, that only serves to cave oneself in around oneself. “Incurvatus in se”.
Arrogating spells out to a “T” the aim of the ego and false pride. It cannot but help reduce oneself into a being of false servitude.
The daily revelations that He shares with me, have opened a heart and mind that have remain closed for quite some time. In many ways a form of solitary confinement.
Exerting the gift of freewill and choosing His path is remaking things for me in this stage in life. The apeture is growing , the curve opening outward more towards Him and others.
BRUEGHEL, Jan El Viejo_El Jardín del Edén, c.1610-1612 _(CTB.1988.29)
“The wise men came to Bethlehem and gave the child their precious gifts. When you come to Christ, break open the very best of yourself and make it a gift for him.
Finally, they returned to their home country by another route. As Fulton Sheen commented so magnificently: “Of course they did; for no one comes to Christ and goes back the same way he came!”
Bishop Barron – Daily Gospel Reflections, Sunday, January 7, 2024.
Some time ago, I got lost on my way towards Bethlehem. Not that I am or ever will be a wiseman. Just that I too saw the guiding warmth in that star. I wanted nothing more than to be there for and with Him. Unfortunately, I got lost. I chose selfish defiance instead of selfless reliance. Since then, I have been working to find my way back ever since.
Sad to say, when I can finally return in full, I will not be able to break open the very best of myself as my gift to Him.
I will only be able to share my utter brokenness.
He deserves better. But for now, that is all I have.
But I know now that He understands the nature of my gift and is ok with that. He simply wishes for a relationship. Friendship. A bond. Love.
He knows for a fact that anyone that comes to Him is most likely broken in some fashion. In need of reassurance. Repair. Redemption. And resurrection. He knows that anyone that comes to Him does not go back the same way. His loving touch changes everything.
His gift to me.
That is exactly what I am counting on.
That is what I desperately need.
That is what I know for a fact will ultimately come to save me.
My journey may have taken me towards Him from one direction.
...my temporary assignment. 